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Saturday, May 27, 2006
i had a great time these past 2 days though the hols barely started. its not even a holidays to begin with, so many make up lessons and mugging to do. 30 days just doesnt seem enough. whats more, the gss is on now so.. its really quite impossible to do so much in these short 30 days. =D

friday we had HOCKEY bbq! it was a blast! thanks to david's nice home and his sweet family. they prepared so much good food ok. and throughout the whole night, he and his family were serving us can. their prawns are like HEAVENLY can! and david's super talented lah. he can play the piano and violin and his hockey is zai. he's what we call "neng wen neng wu". weiling has got good taste man. haha. and his niece is called faith! thats what i want to call my daughter next time too ok! his niece has cheeks that look alot like his. i think its a lee family thing. we were swinging on the swing on his lawn, and then we went in for elections. alee's the new cap. i really hope the new exco foor 2006-07 will bring hockey to greater heights and we'll get everything that we wanted to but couldnt this year. *=) i couldnt bear to leave for home that night. its just one night of fun and crap lah. im so going to miss my team mates for the next half a year before we get to meet again ok. im so glad i got to know people whom i disliked and feared last time so much better. im almost loving them more than i love myself!

i went to town with my shifu yesterday! he rocks ok! i think he's very gentlemanly and nice lah, though i didnt tell him this. he's very sweet and is like a super fine young man! its been a year since we last met up? and i bought a clutch bag! we had a nice long talk at macs and im so glad to see his transformation in his thinking. he's a happier person now and im really happy for him! we went to watch davinci code and tom hanks really... my favourite scene was the last one, when langdon finally realised the true meaning of the codes and found mary magdalene's tomb. thats the best part because tom hanks didnt need to say anything. he just have to act solemn. haha. after the movie it was 12 plus already. so we took a bus to shifu's house and he drove me home! yeah i've got another thing to be proud of my shifu already. he can drive well lah! careful and steady but not slow. haha.

its a super nice gathering lah! its been a long long time since we had such a great time out together. some thoughts surfaced along the way though. i guess i must have thought alot last time. not that i dont think as much now, but im a happier person now. havent really told anyone how i felt deep down inside till yesterday when i told shifu some stuff. i guess rv guys are still my favourite guys! and all of them are seniors. they are the greatest guys on earth and i hope all of them get nie, good girlfriends! yeah, this is the season to shop and catch up with my friends! its the GSS now what! shop till we drop! i hope this will be the last fun hols before i really start mugging for As.

i guess nothing can compare with friends whom you feel comfortable enough to open up to. even if its a moment of silence, its worth more than a thousand words you say to a normal friend. its hard to find somebody who truly understands you, and up till now i think i've only had 1 friend who did that. my wt. its hard to accept people with stark flaws, and thats why its so hard to find a true good friend. someone who loves you for who you are though you may be the most imperfect person in the world. i've come to like being alone in nj. i've come to like thinking and staying away from the crowd. i guess there's no point in putting up a front. i need to be somewhere i can be free. somewhere i can be me.

pl, ethel, wy! we must meet up soon oh! you all plan and tell me when to go out ok!
wt, hw and 4g people! organise gathering soon oK!
sjAb! my carrot team and all!
shifu! go out again soon ok! im going to dig out everything about you and you must be my chauffeur!
skymy! i miss you all! saw yu that day at delta ahhh!
hockey! we go shopping sooN! karen we must find bag!!!!!!
s09! when are we going to shop? i want to swim at shun's house!

im going to let loose this hols! and yes, hockey was indeed a season worth remembering. like what alee said, we are like the snowflakes that gather strength through numbers. and for us, winter will never end. *=)

*jAye at woRds
Made a FASHION statement
9:21 PM


Sunday, May 21, 2006
im getting so freaking paranoid again! woke up this morning feeling super stressed. i realised i've been doing my work for the sake of completing them! compared to the vigour i had for studying when i was in sec4, i feel so out now. there are tonnes of things that i dont know! and it doesnt help that i dont have time for consultation. uh huh, spell screwed.

its a nice holiday at home today. im learning how to cook with the new hot plate. but here i am blogging. i seriously feel very scared for cts! can you imagine how i would feel when it comes to A's? i dont want to study, and i dont want to do anything! i just want to sit and rot and do nothing. i dont even think there is anything fun to do online. well, apart from reading colinandkero's blog.

im getting too easily distracted already. somehow i miss those rv days, with 4g, sjab, 2L, skymy.. you know, those days when you can play the whole day, be online, watch si, jie da huan xi and still score kind. those days when you always have ample time at hand and no concepts seem too tough to handle. you know, those secondary school days. and now here i am in nj. up till now i still dont know if i like or dislike nj. i dont even know what i feel towards nj and my friends. im that confused.

to cy: hey leave your blog name down ok! so i can link you and read your blog!
to zj: hey i dont know whats wrong with my tag board eh.. i'll reply you soon i hope! so sorry for the long overdue letter.. been kind of busy! =X im always wishing the best for you though! *=)

*jAye at words
Made a FASHION statement
8:31 PM


Saturday, May 20, 2006
im so tired because of college day. bought $10 worth of tickets but only spent $6 on food, and i only ate 2 things lah. sian.

anyway shun was saying vv and wendy very close. though they meet up for lunch like almost everu day, they still have endless topics to talk about. no leng chang kind. and i think im not even so close to ki lah! i always only manage a hi and bye when i see her. and to think we used to be crazy classmates and good friends just 2 years ago. was reading weijing's od just now. brought back alot of memories about my life in sj. still remember that pillar outside sj room which i always hug. and how i always walk along the corridor outside co room shouting at the cadets to be louder and faster. how i miss those authoritative days! i just miss those days when i was still close to my good friends in rv. friends in nj can never hold a candle to those friends i made in rv. and now im almost losing them....

im glad i always manage to choose nice ccas, those with strong cca spirit and everyone's friends with everyone kind. its always the people who keeps me going for cca, not the activity itself. im just glad good things always happen from something i initially thought was bad. so glad. and im so tired, i wont be studying or doing work today! its a rest day for me.. and then its full time mugging? wait till june. think im not going to have time for revision again. but i dont want bad results again! all the stupid makeups. can the school authorities get any stupider? arghs..

we lost to vj because of penalty flicks. we wouldnt have gotten that far if the defence didnt manage to counter vj's attacks. at least we played well that day. playing rj on tuesday for 3rd 4th placing. wish us luck.

*jAye at woRds
Made a FASHION statement
4:13 AM


Saturday, May 06, 2006

beginning to think that my blog's getting pretty boring with all the words. so here i am to post the photos i took with the hockey team on friday! there are only 13 of us in the one above though. my eyes are dropping out from doing the stupid chem S research online for dont know how long and i didnt find anything on diazotisation! =( so sad lah. and blogger's taking so long to upload one photo. shall stop here. there'll be more to come from beets' camera! they'll look super nice and funny. we took minah photos. hehe. i need the passion for studying. xian jian qi xia zhuan's ending next week. sad. my tangyu xiao bao!

*jAye at words.

Made a FASHION statement
8:43 PM


Friday, May 05, 2006
injured my hand on wednesday's training. woah the pain is excruciating can. cant exert weight on my hand. oh man. got hit by a super hard flying ball. arghs. cant really write. i hope its just hurting from an impact, and nothing serious. most of the coaches and teachers confirmed its not a fracture. im hoping some exercise [from typing by using the net hah] can help loosen up the nerves and alleviate the pain. not seeing a doctor because my parents will kill me should they know i injured myself because of hockey, and then i can say farewell to the hockey pitch. and mind you, its not goodbye, its FAREWELL. arghs. and going to doctors cant stop the pain immediately. which is what i need now!

we won cj 2-1. shouldnt have conceded the goal. referee was super biased lah. that soab.if he didnt give that freaking short corner to them it would then be a nice 2-0. i hope we can get into the semis!

im like doing work for the sake of doing it. this feeling is growing in me lah. season is so distracting. i just want to get all my 90+ back. and then i'll feel like im not letting go of any of my responsibilities. not to my parents or my team. and i hope we're edging closer to colours awards!
when i got injured on wednesday, i thought back about unclek. seems like the past was so near yet everything changed. and it was his birthday.

*jAye at words
Made a FASHION statement
6:25 AM






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