i've always remembered this line i read in a book by amy tan. though i forgot the title of the book. thats almost what is happening now. just only last week i was bursting wtih joy, and right now im whimpering like nobody's business. everything is so screwed in my life right now. bad things come one after another. i just dont know how to push on. time is definitely not on my side. and it doesnt help to worry about priortising and the negative social consequences arising from this act. everything is just so wrong.
i hope the weather starts getting friendly with hockey matches so it will stop raining! we keep missing lessons for nothing when it rains! we just go down to the pitches and watch the rain, then wait an hour or two just to hear the referees tell us the match is postponed to tomorrow morning, which means missing more lessons. im so tuned out for physics lah. i hate it. hate being imperfect. so perfectly imperfect. and having my grades drop a thousand million notches. argh.
perhaps the only happy thing in this week is the 6-0 in the jj match. but well, its not so happy because i saw susan cry. its heart wrenching when you have to play against a good friend on the pitch. she really played well in the match. and i love her soo sooo sooooo much.
i hope for all my friends to be happy. because i know its hard to get such nice and supportive friends. but somehow i got them. im thankful but i dont know how to show. i always dont know how to show my gratitude. and i regret ever being mean to them. i love all you people out there. thanks for being part of my life, even if its just a day. i feel so loved. i do appreciate you all and if i ever lost my cool with you people, please forgive me. really.
i dont know what to say anymore.
*jAye at words.
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