Fashion<3

god i cut my hair! and because my friends always say that i look the same everytime i get my hair cut, so i told the hairdresser to cut it till its at my shoulders. and hur, now i look like a little girl. i even got my fringe! and now i miss my long hair lah. =( i look like a little girl now, and im serious about it. arghs, just when my sis said i look immature. and i cut my hair till i look much more like a kiddo! what to do. =X but its a new look yes. for a change perhaps.

i still miss my long hair. oh no

hockey's trainings getting intensive already i think. next week there's 4 trainings lah. haiyoh. and im slacking like nobody's business after cts. so gonna lose my momentum and the things is we've got some independent learning to do and i didnt jot them down! so most probably im going to miss out some stuff here and there. =X

i was watching pride just now! my god, halu's as charming as ever! i love love love love him! and i saw aki's long nice hair and i got reminded of my old long hair. arghs. halu and aki's so so so sweet. felt like crying when aki and halu broke up because aki's original boyfriend came back. so sad can. and i think i want to finish watching the dvds because they are kj's. better return them to him asap. but i dont know how! hmmm. and i was watching xian jian qi xia zhuan yesterday. awww so nice can. i love tang yu xiao bao! he's so good looking! haha, and he's so blur and cute in the show, i just cant get enough of him. though he looks like a cow in the show, because he's got so many rings and loops on him. heh.

now i've got 2 favourite man on my list. first is halu dearest and then its cute tangyu xiao bao. now if i ever see a guy like either of them i'll grab him real tight. but then again that's not going to come so i'll carry on with the eternal wait. was talking to rn today saying i'll be a spinster for life and she was like, "its not as if we cant live without guys" and i said yes. that's the spirit man. now that the cts are over i've got more time to think. hmmm i guess its more worthwhile channeling my time and energy in thinking about how to face my horrendous results for the papers that im going to get back. uh huh, so dead.

ah, halu and tangyu are my MEN! i really love them. hmmm.

sometimes i wish things can be made better. oh let time heal my wound, let me get out of this web. i just dont know what to feel.

*jAye at words

Made a FASHION statement

5:19 AM

i cant help reflecting and though almost all my friends tell me i think too deeply into things, i still love thinking. it keeps me sane and makes me feel real. it really makes me feel like i do exist, at least i mean something to myself, though im certainly not a narcissist.

im so screwed for cts lah! i did the papers without much focus and then i was careless as always! physics and econs killed me lah. arghs. i hate not doing well for my papers. yucks. it makes me feel so useless. its like im giving up in view of temptations. just gave up my weeks of hard work. nah i shall just be resolute and start doing something to make myself feel good.

sometimes people dont see what they should see and they make the world out of it. its so irritating its eating into me. or maybe im just trying to run. while the more you try, the more you get tangled in this web of affairs, there's no way to break free from this estrangement.. and sometimes i just wish that i have a greater control over every part of my life. it seems like its heading into nothing and everything is just so chaotic. im losing myself.

ahhh i miss rv! its such a nice and cosy place! and the people i met there, i guess they are going to stay for life. and zhijun, i think i kind of allowed myself to be taken in by the chain of events happening and so my cts are gone! i hope things are getting for you already.. do take care and smile more k! im with you! remember, keep your faith and you will be fine. everything will be fine in the end, just that the end isnt here yet. keep on moving! *=)

ahhh i still have spa skill a on friday! i really ought to restore my faith. hmm

*jAye at words

Made a FASHION statement

5:24 AM

gp was a killer. i better start mugging effectively for the other subjects. i dont want to die for ct because of my dwelling.. hmmm. i will i will! if i can do it for Os prelims, this is nothing compared to that! i'll be fine! with faith, i'll surpass the limits i've defined. yes geok meng, you will be fine. stand strong, you'll tide through.

thanks zhijun for the chocs! i really hope things get better for you.. you've got great friends around, so do cheer up k! flash your radiant smile again! but sometimes, only we ourselves know what we're really. its ok to feel, but dont dwell in it like i allowed myself to yups. someday we'll all be fine. and with each passing day, we're reaching the light. *=) jiAyous.

*jAye at words

Made a FASHION statement

3:58 AM

our time has come.
yesterday, we were together.
today, we belong to history.
a part of me died, along with the birth of a new you.
gone.

thanks skymy. darlings, love you all as always.

*jAye at words.

Made a FASHION statement

4:07 AM