i always tell myself to have faith and be optimistic. i think the very reason that i keep doing so is because im not a person of faith and am actually quite pessimistic. well well. whatever choice that i make will make me uncertain and insecure. and both choices wont be a fair one. mr alvin leong always said that as people grew more affluent and better educated, they have a discerning mindset that makes them independent and able to make choices on their own. doesnt really apply to me. but i dont have enough time at hand! and this year is an important year.. grrr. im such a confused weakling. duh.
damn me. why cant i be near perfect? why do i always land myself in situations when i question myself? why do i always do something this minute and feel like killing myself in the next minute? whats up with me man.
my econs tutor is mr gilbert lee. i think he's really a pretty good econs tutor! though im always struggling with econs, but he has made econs more understandable. ahha, but still im struggling lah. mr alvin leong is my gp tutor! i love the way he always make small talks with us as the whole! can bond us together. he's not as bad as i thought him out to be. hmm, and i think my future in gp is less bleak because of his existence! he's funny. haha, physics and maths tutors are the same. im so glad. haha miss khoo and mr adrian low rocks man! they're fabulous tutors. ehhe. oh and civics and chem tutor is mrs chiew. currently she's making me more blur in chem than actually enlightening me. but still, chemistry is my favourite subject! and miss lim for pe! yay! lately im feeling a little happier because im having fun studying. just love the feeling of being swarmed by knowledge. and its swarmed, not drowning. at least i catch some balls. hehe.
life's pretty good. but never perfect. still caught up between my priorites and my wants. the problem of scarcity. sigh*
*jAye at words.
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